That's how I'm feeling — upside down. Don't you think Chili is illustrating that perfectly? ;-)
I miss talking to my son. I miss knowing that he's going through all sorts of new and challenging times and I can't know what he has to say about it, at least not until the letters start coming and even then, it's not going to be the same. I miss our conversations. I miss our little texts to each other during the day. I miss our dorky almost daily ritual of watching Jeopardy together. And I can't believe how weepy I still am. I know I sound pitiful and I know it will get better. But right now? Well, it just sucks. Thanks for listening.
I know my pity party isn't much fun for you guys so I'll move on to other things.
The only sewing since last weekend has been to sew a button on my younger son's friend's shorts (hide your eyes Selfish Seamstress!) and today I serged the raw ends of some cuts of fabric so I could pre-wash them and put them away. They were the last hold-outs from my fabric closet reorganization. (That's still more sewing than some people in NYC cough:Peter:cough.)
I did pull out actual garment patterns tonight and I will be starting on SOMETHING wearable tomorrow. I also want to make another HP Sunshine Top so maybe I'll even get two new tops done by the time the long weekend is over. I decided that if I plunge into a new pattern, I will distract myself from the pity party for a while. I might have something new to blog about too.
And for those waiting with bated breath, I'm also almost finished writing up the tutorial for the Bread Safe (DS#2 wants me to call it the Bread Buddy — opinions?) and that will be available soon. But no more anonymous bread lectures from the peanut gallery, OK? I *do* buy and also make very healthy whole grain fresh breads on a regular basis, but I also have a husband and son(s) who prefer the squishy bread for PB&Js. I don't think lesser of them for it. But since I'm sure I'm not the only one who buys that devil bread on occasion, I thought it would be fun to share a solution for something that has bugged me when buying the evil stuff. Please feel free to have your own bread preferences. Really. Now I'm off to eat some Twinkies, Cheetos and Diet Coke. Hahahaha …
I totally understand the weepys. I had them when the 1st daughter went off to school...at odd moments I would find myself tearing up...and then full out bawling. It will pass! ;) In the meantime sew something it will help pass the time while you're drinking Diet Coke, eating twinkies and Hohos! :)
ReplyDeleteYou are most certainly allowed a pity party considering the circumstances. I would have one too. Glad to see that you are thinking about sewing again.
ReplyDeleteEat all the squooshy bread you want! It completely amazes me what people will write in a blog comment. It's the comments that keep me from starting my own blog. I'm too afraid I'd start telling everyone off and no one would read it!
ReplyDeleteROFL!
You are so entitled to be weepy and so sad. I remember those days when my older two went to college, which is very different than the military. We were able to talke and text. Sewing does help, but it all takes time.
ReplyDeleteI'm getting more of those type comments too --and always under Anonymous. If you can't say it with your name, don't say it you cowards!
ReplyDeleteEat what you want, sew when you want!
You may be weepy and sad, but you're still entertaining us! :-)
ReplyDeleteIt's nice to see that you have such a wonderful relationship with your sons...you're entitled to your upside down feelings....hopefully sewing will help and get your mind off missing him ~ a little :)
ReplyDeleteDebbie, I think being weepy is better for you in the long run. You get it out of your system and then you can go forward. It's all part of the process. I'd be weepy too.
ReplyDeleteStill keeping you both in thought and prayer,
Helen
I understand how you feel. DS moved out a while ago and I still miss him. I miss talking to him in person. I miss him kissing me on the forehead. DH misses him bbut won't admit it. I'm glad that I have sewing to distract me.
ReplyDeleteMissing your son is totally alright and completely understandable! It's so hard letting kids grow into independent people apart and away from ourselves, but it's something that we all have to do. I think your plan to sew something new to distract yourself is a good one.
ReplyDeleteBTW--I can't believe someone lectured you on bread! It's really interesting what people focus on when they're reading posts on blogs. I was fascinated with your bread buddy and wonder how anyone could focus on the bread when reading that post. LOL! What a great idea!
Oh, and I vote for the buddy name.
Take care of yourself,
Em
Had to add to clarify--the great idea was the bread buddy, not focusing on the bread.
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Em
Bread buddy is great. I cannot believe you would get criticism about white bread, sheesh, internet etiquette is severely lacking in this world. Go have a diet coke and treats, get busy sewing, it will pass (on your son's leaving). I have little kids, so I don't know what that's like, but when something hard hits, I crack out my favorite treats and sew or crochet until I feel better :)
ReplyDeleteOK, went back and read the comments - Peter I wasn't necessarily referring to you since I realize what you do for a living with nutrition, but the anonymous commenters who don't sign their name. I have seen other blogs get negative comments with "Anonymous", sign your name if the comment means that much to you.
ReplyDeleteHow about the "bread bra"?
ReplyDeleteSometimes when people criticize our bread, they're just trying to say, "I care!" or "Please pass the marshmallow fluff."
Hope you're not feeling bad about the weepies, thinking you should be "over" it. You miss him and he misses you! (I'll have to go back, didn't see the bread comment.) Anyway, feeling upside down...I can relate. Take care of yourself, don't force anything till you feel better.
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I don't think anyone is thinking lesser of you for your weepyness! You're a devoted Mama! I'm sure it'll get better as time passes. We're here for you to lean on!
ReplyDeletePeter - I hope you know I wasn't referring to you. You didn't leave an anonymous comment and weren't judgmental. Offering advice with love - or Fluff - is a whole different, and welcome, thing. Esp. the Fluff. ;-)
ReplyDeleteBread bra? I don't think my younger son would feel right toting a bra to the grocery store.
I had to go back and read the comments, and I agree with the one about your beautiful kitchen. Take us on a tour, please!
ReplyDeleteSome things in life really suck so cry all you want. However, you must share the Twinkies :)
ReplyDeleteDebbie, the weepys are so completely understandable. I felt that way when my daughter flew the coop, and she wasn't going to BOOT CAMP at Parris Island! Your son is made of gold and I am sure you must be a wonderful mom.
ReplyDeleteHeck I am getting teary-eyed myself. Go DS1!
I am so sorry you feel sad, I would be a wreck... about the time you start feeling better he will be home again, be happy that you two are so close and know that he is missing you like crazy too... huggs...
ReplyDeleteGreat blog. Please thank your son for his service, and I'm thanking his family as well for rasing a fine young man. Love your bright fabrics and projects. And the sewing room re-organization... well what can I say? Wonderful! And I found this blog all because of that cute dog! Another Project Runway fan, too.
ReplyDeleteI hope that your son is doing well...I work at a university, so the last few weeks I have been watching parents go through similar things, leaving their freshmen at school. And I am so glad you are making a tutorial for the "bread buddy." It is a fantastic idea!!
ReplyDeleteFor someone who is understandably in a "weepy state", you still make me smile. Twinkies, cheetos, and diet coke are almost as helpful as sewing. I am delighted to hear that you are getting ready to sew garments. I vote for the name "Bread Buddy". I think you need to ignore Peter's name suggestion. I doubt that he would use the "Bread Bra" for its intended purpose.
ReplyDeleteI've often thought the families of our military service people deserve our thoughts and prayers as much as those who are actually on duty! Please accept a big heart-felt "thank-you" and let your son know he is appreciated!!
ReplyDeleteI feel for you so much. It's no pity party just a sign of your strong attachment. Take good care of yourself, sounds like you raised a great guy.
ReplyDeleteI'm LOL about the "squishy" bread. At our house, the dgs's ask specifically for a "squishy peanut butter" which is pb on this *very* squishy white bread from a local Dutch Bakery. They make many healthy breads, and their white bread is probably more healthy than the grocery store brand, but my dh likes it white and squishy. So it's a real treat for the dgs's because they get the more healthy variety at home. So *squishy" is a brand name at our house. And this has carried through from our oldest dgs who starts University this week (All Grandma's fabric money for the year went for a gift card for the University bookstore for his first year books) down to the just turned 2yo who has trouble with the words but nods emphatically when you ask him! Just having dgs move on to university in the same city has me weepy I can't imagine having him physically out of reach for us. You can hold all the pity parties you want - poor baby!
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