Memory Lane

Thank you everyone for all the nice comments on the Sorbetto top. The photos look much better than it actually fits. I could deal with the hip flare, either by ignoring it or by actually taking in the seam, but it's the upper chest that is worse. It's just too wide. I've got it balanced pretty well in the pics but as soon as I move, my bra straps are sticking out big-time and it just hangs on me weird. It's not ever going to be something I love and wear in public, especially since it's too big now and I'm still planning to lose weight so it will only get bigger. But as a house or PJ top, it will be fine.

I'm still hopeful, though, that a trip through the laundry will shrink it up a little bit and make it a squidge better for the short-term. We'll see. It takes me a while to save up enough whites for a full load. I don't tend to wear a lot of white clothing as inevitably I slop something on myself. Even making this top, I must've pricked a finger with a pin because I found a drop of blood on it. Luckily, I found it *before* I touched it with the iron so it came out.

Now, onto the main topic of this (long-winded) post …

I hope you don't find my "what am I wearing" posts (like this one is) boring or too self-serving, but I will own up to the self-serving part as I'm trying to document for myself what I'm wearing, and when, to go along with the weight loss journey. I thank you in advance if you make it through to the end.

I haven't had a working scale in years (helps with the denial) so I'm not sure how much I've actually lost. I'm guessing 15-20 pounds. I'm also guessing I still have about 80 to go. I know I can do it, and I'm determined to make it happen before my next (milestone) birthday in March 2012. I was born in 1962 — you do the math. ;-)

I'm not planning on getting a new scale for a while longer because the current number is still going to be a downer and I think for me it's more effective to judge by how my clothes fit and look and my trusty measuring tape. A scale is only a number after all and even in my thinnest days in my 20s, I always ALWAYS weighed more than anyone else my size (which was a 1980s size 12). I know "big bones" is a fatty excuse, but I really do think I have *dense* bones or something, that just weigh more than someone else's. Ten pounds of boobage doesn't help the number either and I never lose weight there. ;-) All this means a scale has never been my friend and won't be now. The next step is exercise and firming up to go along with the reduction in food intake, which I've now started. I have an eliptical bike in my air-conditioned bedroom for heaven's sake and I decided it was time to dust it off.

So, here we go …

These RTW capris fit me 2-3 months ago. They are size 24. I can now *easily* pull them on and off without undoing the fly, and in this pic the waistband is riding on my low hips. To give you perspective, the top I'm wearing hits below my stomach. I wore them around the house yesterday and Alex was calling them "clown pants," which is what prompted a new try-on session this morning. I will be donating these white capris as soon as they are washed. I really liked having white capris, so I will be looking for another RTW pair. I'm not going to be making any new pants for a while. I have plenty in my closet that I'll be digging out soon enough.

I was looking up stuff on my blog yesterday and came across another pair of capris I made 4 years ago and had completely forgotten about. When I saw the blog post last night, I figured I had donated them since I didn't remember seeing them in my closet. After a closer look this morning, I found them hanging in the back squished between the other pants that I'll soon be fitting into. This is what I'm wearing right now. Dani approves.

These are my "Best Jeans Ever" jeans. The last time I tried them on was about 2 weeks ago and I couldn't zip them or button the waistband. Now they fit and are actually more loose than tight. I can tell I'm losing belly fat quicker than anywhere else, which is fine with me. You will notice that I don't show side-view pics very often and am still not quite ready to. One downside is that all of my tops are now too long since there's a lot less belly to hold them up but I can deal with that side effect. I'm wearing 3" wedge sandals in this pic so my legs look pretty long for me. The top is from BWOF from 2007, I think. I couldn't get my belly into it last month. Now it's loose.

The capris I bought at Walmart recently are size 20. How true that is, I don't know. But I do know I couldn't wear any of my smaller pants and capris 2 months ago and now I can wear a good number of them. I still have more RTW and MM jeans for the trip downward and will keep testing loss progress with those every couple of weeks or so. Once I'm too small for my oldies, I will probably then buy a scale.

Parting shot: Dani with Chili's bear. She's sneaking in a play and a chew because she knows if he caught her, she'd be Dead Meat. She looks guilty, doesn't she?